Wednesday, February 16, 2011

A Heads Up Before We Head Out




In 9 days my wife and I will be flying to Honduras and living there in an impoverished area for three months.  We will be working with Mercy International, constructing houses for the poor and possibly helping kids in the school system.  There is a lot up in the air so late in the game.  We just now secured a 2-room apartment that supposedly has a bed init--the condition and cleanliness of the bed unknown.   We do not have cellphone arrangements worked out and may have to wait until we get there to do so.  These and more create high anxiety for me.  My wife is much calmer about it than I.  That's fortunate; we'd be getting nothing done if both of us were tucked in a fetal position.  I think I'm regressing; I don't recall sucking my thumb prior to making this monumental decision.  Of course, at my age recalling my DOB requires a post-it note.

I'm anxious about immaterial matters, such as not being able to get a deep tan.  I love the sun and have for decades.  Apparently, the sun doesn't share a similar fondness for me.  In recent years a dermatologist has made me aware of numerous sites of skin cancer, basal cell carcinoma.  I have been having them removed 2 or 3 at a time.  I have vowed that I will now protect myself with sunscreen.  The thought of being lily white after three months in Central America is not appealing.  However, the thought of possibly no more surgeries requiring staples and stitches to close the sites is very appealing.   My vanity will take a hit.

I'm anxious about important matters.  I have friends and family that are terribly struggling with life.  I don't believe that staying home would make a difference in their life. That's not the issue.  The issue is that being here gives me a sense of security in that at least I am available and can see and talk with them and do something for them if they requested.  I will feel helpless living so far away. 

I can feel the sadness slowly mounting as the reality of our departure draws closer. This past Sunday  was the  last time we  will see our friends in our community of faith.   I know I won't be able to embrace and say good-bye to everyone that I care about.  We won't get to see everyone before we leave, and words will be left unspoken and hugs withheld.

Yet, in all of this I am nonetheless excited.   The day we arrive there will also be a team from the U.S. flying in to do construction work.  I can't wait.  If possible I want to start building with them or hiking up into the mountains with them to build a shelter up there.   My  adrenalin is pumped;  I don't want to gradually tiptoe into this adventure.  I want to plunge in.

I am excited about the prospects of making an impact on families--an impact lasting for generations.
I'm excited about how all of this will impact ourselves.  I have a feeling that the intensity of this work and the harshness of the environment will serve to purge our marriage and make it stronger.  I'm not looking forward to the stress it may place on our relationship, but I view the stress as a means to a beautiful end.

I realize I am rambling and for that I apologize.  I'm not feeling real linear and sequential right now.  I also apoligize for the long delay in posting this blog.  I'm very distracted.     

I hope to post one more blog before we leave on 2/25.  Electricity and the Internet down there are not particulary reliable.  Consequently, I don't know how frequently I will be blogging.  Also, we could be up in the mountains working for a week at a time with no access to computer.  I appreciate your patience in all this.

I intend to chronicle these coming three months and share with you our experiences.  I appreciate your reading and following thus far; I hope you'll stick with me.








 

14 comments:

alejandro guzman said...

I'm stuck. Wishing you the best on your wonderful and giving adventure.

Cheers A

Asta Luego

Jessica Brant said...

Steve I hope you and your wife enjoy your lengthy trip abroad. I know you will be miss terribly by your children, friends, and another who I will call "Lovely Lady". Please be safe and try to post from Honduras. I sure I am not the only one who would love to read your tales.
Blessings
Jessica Brant

Louise said...

Wishing you all the best whilst abroad ~ can't wait to read all about it! :)

Steve said...

There will be lots of stories too share. i hope I will have the time, the discipline, and the available technology allowing me to share them. Thank you 3 for your encouragement.

Zach said...

I'll be praying for you, Steve. Here's a little something I wrote for you:)

http://zachpflederer.wordpress.com/2011/02/17/travel-tips-what-not-to-do-part-3/

JeanaK said...

I will def be awaiting your stories of your travel I am sorry you have to leave loved ones behind. But I ma pretty sure they know your leaving for a good reason as to help others. Not many get that opportunity. I envy you. You will be in my prayers.

Steve said...

JeanaK, welcome aboard the Titanic! :>) Thank you for including us in your praying.

JeanaK said...

Thank U Steve & Your Welcome :D

Steve said...

Zach, I read your post. Thanks, I think. I mean, what could possibly go wrong moving into an isolated village in Honduras where as of yet we don't know the language, have no idea what, if anything is in this 2 room "apartment," where it's not safe to drink the water, where we're to bleach any and all fruits and vegetables before eating them. Thanks for the reassurance, I think.
:>)

Zach said...

The "reassurance" part is that we survived to tell the story, and laugh about it, too:)

I'm looking forward to hearing yours!

Jessica M said...

I will pray God's favor and protection over both you and your wife during your time there. What a beautiful thing both of you have chosen to do...to bring life and light, humanity and compassion and help to the world....most people don't go to such lengths...may both of you not only bless others but receive memories to last a lifetime and unexpected blessings at every turn.
~many blessings

Steve said...

Jessica, I'm already basking in your prayer and blessing. Thanks.

Bongo said...

Stay off of mules....stay away from mountain cliffs....don't bring the camera in the water...bring the sunscreen and use on "falsh".. hug Les often...she'll be the calm one....make friends with the spiders...watch out for those germs....and know you and Les are being prayed over every single day....Grace and Peace..As always...as always...Hang in.....

Jim said...

Gee, you should be really excited about this adventure. Yeah slap on subscreen, wear a big floppy hat, and thoroughly enjoy this. Most people dream of taking off for 3 months to go and do something really useful with their lives... and dream... and dream. And never get off their butt and go help make a difference.
I admire you both.